Tuesday, December 22, 2009


During each Christmas season I become increasingly aware of time. How much I have, how much I don't, and how much I've wasted. We all agree that time is a very precious thing, yet we treat it as though we have more than enough - and contrary to where you think I was going with this - I think that's okay. I've realized this before but I'd like to say it again - The time we think is ours is NOT. Just like EVERYTHING else in this world that we think is owed us, time is just something we are given. Gandalf in "the fellowship of the ring" says something I think I can relate to. Frodo is whining something like "why me? why now? I wish this had never happened". Gandalf replies "So do all who live to see such times; but that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us." I thought it was a nice way to put it. J.R. Tolkein = genius. C.S. Lewis also writes something along those lines. That we are here because God put us here, and we were given time to do his will. (Emphasis on the period). It's funny how we forget that. By "we" I should say "I" because it's possible I'm the one soul on earth who hasn't realized it. It's also possible I'm just saying that because I feel the pressure of "needing more time to christmas shop blah blah blah" and I want to avoid feeling guilt at not getting people the things I wanted to get them. I know I should say something more profound and elaborate on these Ideas - but I just dont have the time right now :)

Monday, December 14, 2009

So it's been a couple years since I've blogged at all... But I'm back! So you can all relax now. By "all" I mean the one or two people who actually follow this thing :) Anyway, Christmas is coming up and I love this time of year. It's Lucie's favortie; it makes her happy to listen to Christmas music and be in the spirit. The only thing we're really sad about is not being able to take any real trips in the near future... We usually have some vacation planned or something - but right now is just too difficult. I dont have a job. Yes - I'm THAT guy. But I'm trying and will continue to do so until I can make life a little easier. The semester is almost over though - two finals this week and then I'm done for a month or so... Speaking of which - have to go study!